.Maulidur Rasul.

Salam Maulidur Rasul to all Muslims across the world.. :)..

I was bored so I made simple notebooks to pass time and then gave it all to Makcik Adra :).. Seriously though, I have been dying to make a proper fabric notebook tp tah kenapa, this heart is too nervous to start. Too afraid of failure I guess. Gotta start sooner or later.

Shahir just got back home from work and clinic. Doctor said he has swelling tonsils and minor bleeding on the tonsils. So he got 2 days of MC..

And thats all for today.

.It's Torture.

Today it rained.

I was sitting at the front door and just watched it rained. I was hoping to see Ayah at the gate. Trying to manipulate my head.

Its torture living here.

Back at JB, I would only be reminded of Ayah atleast once a week. Sometimes I completely forgot that Ayah has passed away. But here, its different. Reality hits like shit and everyday I'm just thinking of Ayah. So you can imagine the mood Im facing everyday.

If my friend who's father has passed for so many years, and still she has not gotten over the passing, I can't imagine how long it's gonna take me to get over Ayah's passing. 

Its driving me nuts inside. Specially with Sahey not around. I'm starting to forget what its like to have a husband around. The 2 important men in my life are not around. :(.

.Happy Birthday Loves.

Yesterday celebrated 3 birthday darlings of mine..

9th Sept : Baba
10th Sept : Adra
25th Sept : Taufiq

Bought Secret Recipe's Oreo Cheesecake and went to Jusco for Grand Canyon Cafe and Arcade.. And of course, abg and adek's birthday present haha..

Adra got herself an ABC laptop and abg got himself a police station set. Baba still havent told me what he wants..

Had a really good day and Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah swt for the extra rezqi you've granted us :').. Alhamdulillah...

.This Small Boat Is Sinking FAST!.

Arini aku stress. Stress sgt,

I've been yelling 1 whole day at the kids because of small mistakes. I've been trying to shut my eyes but I cant get a good sleep! Sneezing is annoying me to the max! All because of this fight me and Sahey are going through.

Wait is my blog private or public?

You know what. I DONT CARE!

I dont have anywhere else to let these off my chest so I am gonna crap shit in here.

It was a month break up before we got engaged. So why did you chased after me if you're not willing to change??????

Did you know what I threw away just to show you that I meant it when I said I'll change if that'll make things for the better???

And what did you do for a change to improve this relationship???\

If you think it was as easy as giving up my piercings, YOU THOUGH DAMN WRONG!!!! EVEN THOSE PIERCINGS OF MINE MEANT A LOT TO ME!! EVERY LITTLE DAMN HOLE I MADE ON MY FACE!!!

I've gave you what you wanted, so what more do  you want just so you'd give up your "SINGLE LIFE" habits for your family???

Its funny how everyone thought we're a happy married couple when truth is, we're screwed and just waiting for this small boat to sink! NO! Truth is, this small boat is already sinking but I'm holding both my kids up high so they don't drown with us!

Da a smpai sni je.

Aku penat.

.1 Whole Day of Bundle!.

Yesterday was a very exhausting one!

The plan was to go visit Luqman who just got discharged from hospital after a bad accident with an ice truck.

Then we headed for Marrybrown with the rest of Sahey's officemates. There was Luqman and his wife, Amir, Along, Zam, Pravin and his other friend cant remember the name. After the visit ended, there was only my little family and Amir Along and Zam.

Guess what these boys planned next?

BUNDLE!!!!

IT WAS ONE WHOLE DAY OF BUNDLE TIL 9.30PM!

Gile weh.. I tell you, my butt cramped countless times just sitting in the car!

These boys are crazy but its nice to see baba and abg had fun getting along with the guys.. Specially little abg with the big boys hahah! Adek unfortunately got stuck with mama in the car lol..

.My Note 2 Is BACK!.

Assalamualaikum,

So I have waited patiently for a month so for my Note 2 to be fixed and Alhamdulillah, is back! The feeling is not the same though since the previous motherboard was broken so replaced with a new 4G motherboard and yea, all is lost :(.. Basically its like having a new Note 2 with an used and abused housing lol.

Its gonna take a while for me to recall what was installed before. Haihhh...

Alhamdulillah, my jubah has already been sent to tailor for all >50 pieces. InsyaAllah semoga dimurahkan rezeki niaga.. Aamiin aamiin aamiin... I want to buy a netbook and a bicycle for Abg :).. And a necklace for Adek with her name on :)..

Btw, had my hair brutally chopped off due to me and sahey's fight few days ago.. Turned out ugly but was expecting something even worse than that. So all is good..

Have a happy fasting month everyone :)..

.Hello.

Alhamdulillah, Taufiq is all well and Adra almost :).. Sahey..? He just started lol.. Me..? Feels like fever back again -.-..

Johor's been raining heavily lately :).. Heaven for me but unfortunately for those bikers going to work specially to Singapore.. Refering to my husband. Lol..

Another few more days and Adra is Alhamdulillah 2 months old :).. Cannot wait til you turn 6 months baby :)..

New exciting things just round the corner:
1. Taufiq screwed the TV dead and so Sahey's buying a new one this week..
2. Billa's engagement this month and her wedding insyaAllah early next year..

Thats all :)..

.Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri 2014.

Yes, I know its a little too late to wish Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, but I'll wish it anyways :)..

First til forth Raya at Terengganu and then the rest at Subang :).. Mom and dad's open house was a success Alhamdulillah but sad cause I didnt have time to talk to Ziela :'(.. Guilty sgt and I am really sorry for not being able to entertain you cause Sahey's cousin was around :(.. I will make it up to you InsyaAllah before I head back to JB :)..

Anyways, Taufiq received alot of duet Raya Alhamdulillah and so did Adik :).. Will open up Tabung Haji once I have his original birth certificate in my hands..

Raya pictures of Sahey me Taufiq and Adik (inside mama's big belly) :D..

.Fever.

Since the whole house is down with fever, haihhh, ape lg.. First my baby's temperature went high and he went down with cold, now I'm down with cold as well.

My whole body is freezing and the fan is not even on!

But Alhamdulillah Taufiq is getting better after that pill up in his ass! Mke selamba saja... Haha... More active than this morning too.. :).. I love you baby...!

Rindu kt sayang saya :(.. Gaduh besar 2 days ago and I cant find the mood to start a conversation yet cause it was his fault.

Semoga Allah s.w.t. sentiasa lindungi and jaga suami aku, murahkan, lapangkan and dekatkan rezeki die, hapuskan hutang2 die and sentiasa berkati hidup amalan and ilmu die :').. Aamiin... Begitu juga dengan keluarga, keturunan and kawan2 kami... Semoga kau ampunkan dosa-dosa kami Ya Allah Ya Tuhan kami..

Aamiin aamiin aamiin... :)..

.These Little Things :).

These little things are what make memories last longer for someone who has short term memory lost like me :)..

Thank you:
- Nur Ziela Ahmad: Birthday present
- Parents: Bali present
- Ahmad Shahir Abdullah: Love

I treasure what we had then and now and to come :).. May Allah s.w.t bless our lives :).. Aamiin...

.JB With Daddy.

Me, parents and Taufiq went to JB for 3 days cause we miss Sahey so much and plus, I needed to clean the new apartment.. It was hell! Smpai nk demam ko!!!

And Noni came to visit us everyday cause she misses baby boo haha...

Taufiq turns 2 month today and he got one hell of an injection on his hip lol .. Sabar ye Taufiq.. :)..

Anyways, we're at Subang now.. Hope to get back to JB very soon :(..

.My Heroes.

Photos of my 2 heroes..

Hehehe..

.Video Call, Yeay.

My 2 handsome boys!!!

.The Day He Became A Dad.

The first day Sahey became a dad ")..

He looked a little different from before when I watched him look at his son.. A little of disbelief and more of excitement. Mane tak, anak mke bapak and plus our first born is a boy ").. It was what he had always wanted but it still wouldnt matter if it was a girl..

His pride and joy ")..

I still havent congratulate him so, Congratulations Sayang for being a Dad to our son :')..

Mama loves you so much!

Alhamdulillah.. Termakbul doa aku tuk bg happiness to both sides of the family :).. Cucu sulung mereka ")..

Thank you Allah s.w.t. for protecting me, my baby, my husband and our family from the first day I knew I was pregnant, until after my safe delivery and til future ")..

Aamiin aamiin aamiin :)..

.Fish Curry.

.A Message To Mr.Husband.

.Maybe Next Month.

.Selamat Hari Lahir Daddy Deboq ").

.Alhamdulillah.

Sedey...

Cause could not celebrate sayang's birthday together this coming weekend, thanks to En Bad's water bill and high rental!!!

But Alhamdulillah, Allah bg rezeki we got a cheaper apartment and its just 1 level down :').. Alhamdulillah moving out by end of this month In Syaa Allah :').. Alhamdulillah.. Thank you Allah s.w.t :).. Hopefully we can start move our stuffs by mid month of September :).. And hopefully this new house is better and safer than this current house..

Aamiin...

Other than that, baby is doing great in mummy's tummy In Syaa Allah :).. Syukur Alhamdulillah :).. I'll always pray only the best for my baby, my husband, my parents, my siblings, my in-laws and my friends :)..

Aamiin...

.Kataka Duduk La Sangat -.-.

Sayang said I sat like a FROG X (...!

At Danga Mall with sayang, Mom Dad and Noni :)..

But no picture of parents and Noni cause everyone was busy looking for their stuffs...