.Happy Birthday, Muhammad Afiq Rosli.

 Assalamualaikum,

Today is Afiq's birthday. I really want to celebrate his birthday today but don't have enough money to celebrate and buy a present for him, at the same time. So I decided to buy his presents and celebrate next week with Billa and family around.

Alhamdulillah, manage to find a seller to COD at Subang Jaya for Deadpool Wallet and Cap :). Its not much from me but I hope he uses it well.

Reminder:
I owe Ammie RM50..

My prayers for my little brother Muhammad Afiq Rosli,
Semoga sentiasa dimurahkan rezeki, sentiasa jg amalan dunia akhirat, dan tidak terlalu taksub ngan dunia filem.. Aamiin :D.

.He's Back. Alhamdulillah.

So Sahey's big surprise for me and the family finally arrived. It was HP ProOne 400 PC :).

Now I have a laptop and a PC! So the old PC, I am gonna send it for fixing and I am gonna give em to my sister. I think she needs it more than me needing the money after selling it away.

So I tried to make a book of my life. Like what dad is doing since forever. Guess what.
Turns out I suck in writing! Baru 1 muka surat and I deleted the whole thing. I feels like such a waste of time. I mean who wants to read about other people's life? Not me. And I doubt anyone would be interested to read it either.

I like doing assignments and work stuff. Cause there's a purpose and goal to it.
But writing about myself?? And my life?
I don't see the point. Keeping it to myself is a better option.

Afiq is back home.
Alhamdulillah.

After the big fight, I had this long deep thought to myself and I find myself realizing that I am not the kinda sister who have the heart to abandon my own siblings. Its just not me. I have been looking out for them since forever, I wont make an irrational decision to dump them now. I'm glad I had that conversation with myself as I cleaned his room and folded his shirts. I cant yell at someone to change to the better. I learned that there are more ways to do that. Even if it means being patient and being the example of who you want them to be.

I lack patience. Maybe this is how Allah swt wants to teach me.
By accepting other peoples flaw.
I was never good at that too. Specially the weak ones. Allah.

Enough.

I am just glad Afiq is where I am able to protect him.

Alhamdulillah.

.Good News and Shitty News.

Its already 3 days mom dad are here and today, Noni just entered UTM to further here Degree in Urban Planning.. Goodluck with that..

Another good news is that Nabbie will be going for check up test and In Syaa Allah, she will pass it and get the job at SDMC :).. Aamiin..

Tomorrow is my pregnancy check-up appointment and also In Syaa Allah baby scan :).. Remind me to get a print copy of the scan hehe...

Shit news is Afiq's phone got stolen by his own course mate. Yea the phone I personally bought for him and he doesn't know how to look after it! Yes I am upset. Syikin jugak yg pandai hargai barang yang org len hadiahkan kt die.

Haihhh... Beratnye hati.. Semoga Kau lindungi and jaga suami aku slalu Ya Allah sepanjang die tiada di sisi and pandangan aku.. Aamiin aamiin aamiin..

.Events and College.

5th month is just round the corner and my baby's been a little active, Alhamdulillah :)...

So yea, Noni is now staying with me at the moment while she waits for her UTM, Skudai offer letter to arrive Subang and I have extra hand here at JB haha...!

Few thanks to:

1. Mak Long and Family.
Thank you for inviting us for Majlis Cukur Syakirah and Aydin :).. It was blessed and the foods were awesome!! I felt like already a mother when I held Aydin in my arms :).. Such beautiful babies :)...

2. Siti Aishah Yunus and Family.
My many apologies for arriving late because we got lost along the way :(.. But I'm glad I was just right on time to watch you all have your photoshoots :).. Semoga bahagia selalu dan kekal bersama smpai Jannah.. Amin amin amin :)... Congratulations Ghaus Alias and Aishah Yunus.. Husband and Wife :)..

And last but not least, to my Brother B... Alhamdulillah and Congratulations, you are now officially an MMC college student ^^.. So study hard and get excellent pointers!!! :).. Welcome to stress and challanges. Best of all, welcome to learning to appreciate your parents when they are not around you when you need them... Independent is the key, and Goodluck to you :).. We all go through those phase where you 'got-something-in-your-eye' moment all of a sudden lol... We love you Brother B..

.Family.

Dad said he'd try make it to JB on Saturday, In Syaa Allah.. But if he can't come, its ok.. I don't want to put any pressure on dad :).. I love you Daddy :)..

Just had the whole house cleaned.. And made few arrangements here and there. Alhamdulillah no pain on myself or the baby so far.. And hopefully we're both healthy :)..

Yesterday Sahey said the most loving thing haha..

*Sahey smiling at me...
*Me wondering what's up..

Me: Asal Dedeq senyum2 ni..
Sahey: Hehe.. Hehe.. Perut yuyunk da besarbesar~~
Me: Eaaaaaa! *senyum sorang2*

Hahaha..

And I tell you, he's loving his new attitude kissing my belly everyday and talking to the baby :).. Every time before heading off to work, he would kiss me and kiss my belly and say,

"Baby, jgn tendang mummy kuat sgt k.. Daddy syg baby.. Daddy g keje dlu k.."

I pray we would turn out to be great and understanding parents, like my parents, only would give our child a chance to choose their career path :)..

Haihhh, I really miss everyone back at Subang Jaya :(.. Mom, Dad, Billa, Noni, Afiq and Little Nootle..

Ever since I got pregnant, I've been so strict towards Afiq and being so over concern and expect too much from him :(.. We've been fighting a lot and I just gave up on him.

I know he just settled his SPM and he probably would want to loosen himself, but I'm just worried that he fails to look after mom dad and his sisters cause its his responsibility as a son to take care of the family! And the only thing he ever does is SLEEP, DAYDREAM ABOUT STUPID MARVEL and DO NOTHING! He doesn't even bother to help mom with chores like we all did when we graduated high school! He can't even wake himself up for prayers especially Subuh! How the hell do you expect to make it through college with that kind of attitude? That's why I'm so concern cause he's a GUY!

I'm more worried that he's not encouraging dad to look after his health!! Dad needs to stick to his diets just like the doctor says and Afiq is not doing any good at looking after dad!!

And now that dad's retiring early, just round the corner, he's NOT DOING A GOOD JOB TRYING TO SAVE UP DAD'S MONEY!!! Dad still needs to pay up car and house loans, pay for Noni, AFIQ and Syikin's education fees and save up money for the family's living, so why in the world can't you just STAY AT HOME AND EAT WHATEVER MOM COOKS FOR YOU and DOWNLOAD MOVIES VIA TORRENT AND BE THANKFUL YOU STILL HAVE SOMEONE TO FEED YOU AND KEEP YOU ALIVE!!!!

At times like this, you should be wise enough to think what's best for you and for the family!!!

Enough talk. Just cause you're growing older, it doesn't make you any wiser if you can't use your brain to think of what's best and what's worse for the family!

But I'll give you a chance. I still love you cause you're my brother and I'm happy you get to take the course you love (cause I've always wanted you to go for animation) and I'm gonna see how you're doing without me, but if you go off track, I'm gonna do what elders must do, pull you back together, even if it means you hating me.. I don't want you to get lost like most boys end up to be after finishing high school.

Thank you.