.DONT GIVE IT A FUCK!.

I'll shake this ground cause I can! I'll save 3 seeds cause they are mine! I'll erupt and destroy heaven and put EVERYTHING TO REST!!

Im the sinner, you're the saint! They see me the devil cause I bitch around and yell! They all know me by anger! They all know you by your silence! But silence is trouble!

I'll tear my skin and show my horns if thats what you're pushing me towards!! If thats what you want the world to see me as!!

Im RUNNING OUT OF PATIENCE! IM TIRED AS HELL BUT SLEEP THERE AND DONT GIVE A FUCK!!

.Lazada Baby Fair.

I woke at 1.30am and didnt sleep since then on. Guess what Ive been doing?

LAZADA BABY FAIR!!!

YES! I have been scrolling down every link available on the Baby Fair section. Ushering. Comparing. And yes, PURCHASING! Lol!

Going nuts over stroller stuffs but lets face it, the stroller that Lily gave me was just perfect.. So I decided to just purchase the seat cushion for extra comfy-ness.

And then there was the pampers section! In bulks! Mak aih.. I took a deep breathe and told myself,

"Dira oi.. The chances of Galaxy Note 8 releasing this October, is high. Save those money for your new baby!"

Tension calmed. At ease, at ease...

My GOD THE TOYS!!!
No! Cant buy toys for the kids! They already got too many! And its a darn mess!
AND THERE'S THE STORAGE SHELF!! For books! And toys!!! DAMMIT!
Tempting but aku x bodoh wehhhh... Ive seen cheaper!

Enough!
I got chores!
😭😭😭😭😭

.Bubur Baby Porridge.

For next month's reference.

http://ayachalo.com/resipi-bubur-puri-stok-ayam-dan-sayuran-untuk-bayi-6-bulan/

.I Need To Be Strong.

Acid reflux.

Its my second attack in a week. I dont get why. I eat the normal things I eat and do my daily routine. Whats causing the frequent attack?

I noticed that once you feel the chest pain slowly starts to hit you, the key is breathing technique. You gotta breathe slow when it hurts.

But lets be honest.
When the pain starts to hit, I panic. Dont we all.

I panic and I forgot how to inhale exhale and I forgot how to relax.
All I can think of is the next stage of this messed up pain. That painful burden. Like heart attack and you can die any minute when chocking for air. Its a real mess.

Alhamdulillah for lemon.
Fast relief.

I take both in fact.
The doctor's pill makes me go dozy and high. So I wont be able to do shit. While lemon takes down the pain. So I get both rest and relief.

Ya Allah,
Please dont do this to me..
I have a family to look and care for..
I need my strength and I need strong..
Thats all I wish for..
Aamiin aamiin aamiin..

.At Peace, Dear Hazry.

Assalamualaikum...

I had reflux attack last night and took the pills. But it didnt work but Alhamdulillah the pain subsided after I drank lemon juice.

Then I got a whatsapp...

Hazry has passed away.

Allah.

I didnt see this one coming :'(..

Al Fatihah to my cheerful cousin's soul. May Allah grant him peace and bless his humble soul.

I will miss your sarcastic jokes and I will miss calling you Asian Bieber. You will always be in memories and prayers.. Aamiin aamiin aamiin...