.Portals and Realms.

I've been having a lot of dreams lately only didn't have the time to open up my lappy and update everyday's dreams.

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This dream, I remember before going to sleep, I do my usual before bed routine. Kiss my kids, tug em in their blanket and make sure they are in the proper sleeping position. Sahey was there too.

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And then I closed my eyes. And then I opened my eyes, everyone was there sleeping just the same position but the environment has changed. Our surroundings were red as if we were in Mars. I wasn't in my house anymore. 

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I didn't bother waking up anyone cause I know they wont hear me.

I was talking to myself, I wanted to get out of here.

Do you know what was in front of me?

So many portals. Each portal leading to difference place or realm.

There was one which was green cause there were grasses and trees.

Another one orange, nothing but the Sahara desert.

Another black. I can only see stairs.

And another one that looked like my home.

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I was gonna head for home until this guy (familiar face) said,

"You wouldn't want to go that way. I'll show you the exit."

I followed him. 

It was the black portal.

"This one. I'll always be here."

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The moment we stepped in, the portal closed, I saw my family disappeared, and there were dead people, SO MANY DEAD PEOPLE along the stairs and MORE OF THEM when were reached the top! Fucking dead people!! Im pretty sure I saw that fucking Valak from the Nun! Babi sial! That son of a betch was staring straight into my eyes but nobody could touch me. Thank goodness!!!

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And then this guy tied me to a tree. He puts an apple on my head. 

I held his hands so tight, practically begging him to help me get out! And I saw his fingers. They were human. Not black and dirty with long nails!

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Me: Please, help me!! Help me!! I want to go home! 

Him: I know. Just play along. I wont hurt you but this has to be done.

Me: What needs to be done?? Please help me!!

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Then he backed away few feet, took out a FUCKING BOW AND ARROW and whispered, "Trust me.", like I don't even know how I heard him said that but he said that.

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Then WHOOSH, arrow hit the apple!

And he came running to me.

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He untied me, gripped my hands and said, "Follow the lady. Don't stray. Just follow the lady to your home.".

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There was a hooded lady. I followed her. The guy said he can't go any further than this point.

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That lady showed me hell. People dying, suffocating, tortured and begging to be released. I don't know what that place was and I didn't dare to ask the lady. I just walked passed all of the horror, covered my eyes, avoid eye contact and there was a portal, I saw my family all still asleep. 

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She came to me, closed my eyelid with her hand.

When I opened my eyes, I was back in bed next to my baby.

.Random.

Yeay, Alhamdulillah, kids final exam is over!! Now I can breathe!!

And plus, I have passed Thariq and Solehah's goodie bag to Kak Aini, so now, I have more time on my hands to focus on kid's next stage of revision for next year, on Iqra' and on the notebooks for Umar's birthday.

I am looking forward to seeing the kids final exam marks. Harap2 la xde yang fail. Aamiin..

Noni's drawstring bag is on its way. Now left to settle stupid Mrs.DIY yang x pos2 kan lagi item2 aku!! Da lebey masa da ni.!

.Almost Done.

Alhamdulilah! My goodness after 2 nights of wondering what Taufiq's Science paper would look like, I finally got myself around to make the questions!

My headache's ALMOST over!

1 hafazan settle for both Taufiq and Adra!

Now I am left with Pendidikan Islam paper and 2 more Surah for both Taufiq Adra.

But for now I think I need a break.

Do you think I should put these papers up on the paid website?
I mean it could earn me some side incomes :D

."Ammar Gemok!".

Hello there my little baby...

This picture was taken after Ammar's evening bath. And then Adra stopped by and laughed at Ammar. I asked her what was she laughing at since I see nothing funny happening.. And she said, "Baby Ammar GEMOK!"

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My goodness Adra.. In case you didn't know, you were my biggest baby among your siblings XD!!!

Because you Ammar, will be my last (In Syaa Allah), I am treasuring every moment of you being the last baby cause then there wont be anymore cries and baby laughs when all of my babies are grown up :(.

If only I could stop time...

.New Cover.

Alhamdulillah.

Finally got to update a new blog header cover :D..

I tell you it wasnt easy getting those four to stay put just for ONE picture! But at last!!

Ok time to go..
Ammar will be up for milk soon...

.Ammar's Circumcision.

Assalamualaikum..

First, let me say, Alhamdulillah. Now I can breathe.

So the plan was to circumcise Ammar at KL with trusted Dr. Zul. Then I set up an appointment which suppose to be on the 27th August. But then it got me thinking, I will be at Subang until 27th. Meaning, after circumcision, we will shoot back to JB. Now wouldn't that be a pain for poor Ammar when the wound is still fresh..?

So googled for circumcision clinics here in JB. And there was this one clinic, Clinic Kamal, where many people have been giving satisfying review about the Dr. Kamal as well as his circumcision procedures. And I wasted no time and gave em a call hoping the circumcision could be done on the same day I called. But they said I have to come set an appointment first (cause Dr. Kamal only do 2 to 3 kids/day) and then pay RM50 deposit. 

Again, no time wasted, Sahey got back from work and we went to the clinic, paid deposit and the date was set on the 19th August. Which was yesterday.

This is the first time doing circumcision without ibu with me. But Alhamdulillah, as others said, Dr. Kamal was quick, neat cut. It went well :).. Ammar only suffered a half day pain with sleeps in between. After 5pm, he wasn't crying anymore when I washed his birdie.

Today, we went to open the clamp. Now he's sleeping :)..

KLINIK KAMAL

No.2, Jalan Mata Kucing, Batu 5, 81200, Tampoi, Johor Bahru.

07 - 236 4148

Operating Hours

Sunday:

8.30am - 1.00pm

Saturday, Monday - Wednesday:

8.30am - 1.00pm

2.30pm - 4.00pm

5.00pm - 9.00pm

Thursday:

8.30am - 1.00pm

2.30pm - 6pm

Friday and Public Holidays:

8.30am - 12.00pm

Break Hours:

1.00pm - 2.30pm

4.00pm - 5.00pm

And that's all the details from Clinic Kamal business card, which is also your patient card.

.Trapped.

I had a really bad dream last night.

I woke up somewhere in the middle of a military camp. But I was a prisoner. There were 2 more girls locked up with me. I don't know them but we tried to escape together. 

It was horrible. 

Every where we turn, it was the same face watching us. A Chinese looking guy with a mix of American. We knew we were dreaming and we tried to escape. 

And we did for a while. Until we realized we only escaped from the prison but not from the dream. We ran from one scene to another whole different scene, hoping there was an exit. Every scene we thought we found an escape but that man was everywhere. From one city to another. We took a weird bus. We ran. We hid.

Until we got on a train. One of the girl said this was her exit. And then came another stop and the other girl said goodbye cause this was her exit. I was left in that dream, running alone. I cried cause I thought I'd never wake up.

Sumpah menakotkan. 

It was the first time I felt trapped in my own dream. Cause usually I can snap myself out.

Then the train stopped. I got out. I stood in front of city gate. There were so many people pass that gate. I was gonna enter until a lady stopped me and said, "Awak da salah tempat ni dik.. Pergi balik semula ke badan awak".

And then, just like that, I woke up from my sleep kepenatan at 8.30am.

Subuh terlepas, sekolah budak pn terlepas.

And I have no clue of what happened back there.

.Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri 2019.

Assalamualaikum..

So its the 5th day of Raya.. And did I mention that we are celebrating it here in Johor Bahru due to my tummy condition. And other one more sensitive reason that I cannot mention.

It wasn't much fun on the first day cause no one had any idea what to do. So we slept the whole day through.

Second day, went to Novatech and jalan-jalan at Aeon, Tun Dato' Onn.

Third day, again, Novatech. Then had late lunch at Ayamas Pasir Gudang before we headed to Kak Dah's house :). It was nice chatting with her and Abg Li.. Such humble couple and their daughter, Fatihah too.. Later that night, sempat lg head to Muaz to shop for 4 blouse for RM98!! Yeay! But the condition of Muaz for all 4 floors were horrible! It seemed as if it just got attacked by zombies! I pity the workers there. Bird brain customers, no manners of putting back the clothings and tudungs at it's place after trying em out!! Giving the workers a hell of a headache arranging and packaging everything back to its place.

And 4th day of Raya, we visited Anip and Hani's place.. And their cute baby Khalish! Thank you for inviting us ^^! Had a great time catching up and eating those yummy cookies!!

And for today, we'll gonna have to wait cause its only 3 in the AM lol. Plan was to visit Luqman but then again, he can only have us at night and I cant cause the kids have school the next day. And plus, don't think my tummy can handle night visits.. So we'll probably be waiting for Sahey's friend, Boy to come here and then head to Plaza Pelangi if there's still time.

But wait, I need to get my tummy checked as well!! 

Time for bed. 

Goodnight.

.AZTP2 Excursion : MCM Studio.

Do you know how hard it was for me to let go of my kids so that they could join this school trip.. The worries, tp Alhamdulillah, terima kasih Allah swt for the responsible teachers looking afters all the kids. :).

They really had a good time at MCM Studio. A place I cant afford to bring them, sigh.. :)

.Adra's Eye Test Follow Up.

Assalamualaikum wbt.

So this morning was Adra's appointment with eye specialist, Dr. Tan regarding her squint eye. And can I first say how humble and nice and gentle Dr. Tan (female) is with my daughter :').. I highly recommend her :)..

Anyways, the appointment goes, Dr. Tan said, Pediatric recommend for surgery, if after 6 months there is no improvement or no progress with her eyes. And as far as eye tests went this morning, her squint is still far from center. :(.

With that, Adra's next appointment will be on the 8th April 19, with a Pediatric. To get confirmation and approval for the surgery.

As a mother, I am very nervous for a surgery on a kid at that age. Cause she already knows fear and she already knows pain :(. She can sense it when situation looks uncomfortable. But, I cant let my worries show. If I show her I am strong, she'll have faith too.. InsyaAllah.

I'll be there for her everyday, InsyaAllah. Aamiin.

Allah swt has the best plans planned and he is the best decision maker for everyone. Aamiin.

.Dear ARUZ.

My sister just sent me this picture. Look at the price. At ARUZ. 

Do you know how close it feels to owning one? And yet, everytime it feels so close, a big heavy commitment pops out of nowhere and, there goes our savings. Sigh.

Patient.

Allah swt knows the best time to own a new car. So lets settle whats important first k and not sigh too much. 😔

.Breakfast.

Ever since my carpal tunnel syndrome been getting worst, me and the kids have been buying breakfast and eating in the car. But today, we ate at the medan selera. 

Sorry mama couldnt cook :(. Its very painful tp grip anything :(

.Assalamualaikum No.4.

Alhamdulillah, I am now 5 months with my No.4 safely in my tummy..

Already feeling the kicks :).

,The "Charmed" Ones.

 This isn't really a dream about the CHARMED from that TV series but it was about me, Billa and Noni. Mom's first batch.

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We were in this house (supposedly ours) and there were full of high stoned people! You can't even tell if they were humans or fucking zombies.

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So yea, mom and dad left us a note with 3 keys. They said to find the locks to these keys and we will find our share of will. We found em all. And inside were all cash! THOUSANDS! In chests.

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And then a catering van came. We asked our maid who ordered catering? She said it was for our Wedding, today! And we were puzzled. Before any of us could say anything, I told my sisters to back away cause I smelt death in the van. And when the back door of the van opened, 2 men had 5 zombies held captive and chained. And these zombies were just staring deep at us 3. 

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And that's all I can remember.

Since the dream involved zombies, I wonder if those humans in our house were really humans or, Zombies???

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I can assure you, this dream is all thanks to Taufiq and Sahey for having Zombie movie marathon on every off day! Its already infected my dream!