Today was a bad mouth fight with Noni that ended up with her took off out of the house.
It wasnt any of my intention but i had an exhausting day with aching all over my body and she just happened to pull out words at the bad time and i slipped my inner hell on her worst day.
Im very sorry. And yes, I did apologize and got her back home. Alhamdulillah.
Honestly, there is just so much anger contained in me that it most of the time makes the button extra sensitive.
How dad always misjudge me and punish me infront of the other siblings somehow makes them disrespect me. He always makes it obvious to others that I am the black sheep and makes me the example of how black sheep should be treated. And this is how they treat me. Its so sickening how dad sets their mind. He doesnt notice this cause he's busy satisfying himself by punishing people. I really hate how he thinks he is GOD and how he thinks he is ALWAYS RIGHT! IT TOOK TOLL ON MY MARRIAGE! And Im the one being hated!!!p
I CANT CRY CAUSE ITS PATHETIC!!! AND I CANT SCREAM CAUSE HES NOT LISTENING!!!! AND I CANT KILL MYSELF CAUSE I DONT WANT OTHER PEOPLE TO RAISE AND MISTREAT MY KIDS!!!! AND I CANT GET OVER THE PAST!!!!!
SO TELL ME WHO I SHOULD POINT THIS BLAMING FINGER AT???!!!!
FUCK THIS!
It wasnt any of my intention but i had an exhausting day with aching all over my body and she just happened to pull out words at the bad time and i slipped my inner hell on her worst day.
Im very sorry. And yes, I did apologize and got her back home. Alhamdulillah.
Honestly, there is just so much anger contained in me that it most of the time makes the button extra sensitive.
How dad always misjudge me and punish me infront of the other siblings somehow makes them disrespect me. He always makes it obvious to others that I am the black sheep and makes me the example of how black sheep should be treated. And this is how they treat me. Its so sickening how dad sets their mind. He doesnt notice this cause he's busy satisfying himself by punishing people. I really hate how he thinks he is GOD and how he thinks he is ALWAYS RIGHT! IT TOOK TOLL ON MY MARRIAGE! And Im the one being hated!!!p
I CANT CRY CAUSE ITS PATHETIC!!! AND I CANT SCREAM CAUSE HES NOT LISTENING!!!! AND I CANT KILL MYSELF CAUSE I DONT WANT OTHER PEOPLE TO RAISE AND MISTREAT MY KIDS!!!! AND I CANT GET OVER THE PAST!!!!!
SO TELL ME WHO I SHOULD POINT THIS BLAMING FINGER AT???!!!!
FUCK THIS!
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