.High, Off The Ground.

Acid attack at 1 am.. So I reached for the pills since there's no lemon in the kitchen. Then I sat for a while. Inhaled exhaled properly. Wait it out. And since Sahey was around, I took the chance to find comfort in his warm arms :').. I then felt peace and fell a sleep for a while until Akid cried for milk...

I woke up at Subuh and I was high. I couldnt tell whether my legs were walking to the left or to the right. I couldnt even feel the floor -.-.. Smyg huyung hayang badan.. And to be honest, it was the best feeling. Hahaha.

Ok tu je nk tulis sbnrnye..
Hehe..

.Longest Acid Reflux Attack.

Crazy night last night!

My acid reflux attack felt like forever to subside!
Thought I could overcome it without taking any pills or lemons, but it just got worse! And when it got worse, the delay of taking pills, also delayed the reflux to subside.

Hours felt like forever!

I cant ly down. I cant sit. I cant stand. I cant roll. Every position just burned! Even inhaling burned because of the chilly air. Dammit.

After my Subuh prayer then I could breathe easily.

.DONT GIVE IT A FUCK!.

I'll shake this ground cause I can! I'll save 3 seeds cause they are mine! I'll erupt and destroy heaven and put EVERYTHING TO REST!!

Im the sinner, you're the saint! They see me the devil cause I bitch around and yell! They all know me by anger! They all know you by your silence! But silence is trouble!

I'll tear my skin and show my horns if thats what you're pushing me towards!! If thats what you want the world to see me as!!

Im RUNNING OUT OF PATIENCE! IM TIRED AS HELL BUT SLEEP THERE AND DONT GIVE A FUCK!!

.Lazada Baby Fair.

I woke at 1.30am and didnt sleep since then on. Guess what Ive been doing?

LAZADA BABY FAIR!!!

YES! I have been scrolling down every link available on the Baby Fair section. Ushering. Comparing. And yes, PURCHASING! Lol!

Going nuts over stroller stuffs but lets face it, the stroller that Lily gave me was just perfect.. So I decided to just purchase the seat cushion for extra comfy-ness.

And then there was the pampers section! In bulks! Mak aih.. I took a deep breathe and told myself,

"Dira oi.. The chances of Galaxy Note 8 releasing this October, is high. Save those money for your new baby!"

Tension calmed. At ease, at ease...

My GOD THE TOYS!!!
No! Cant buy toys for the kids! They already got too many! And its a darn mess!
AND THERE'S THE STORAGE SHELF!! For books! And toys!!! DAMMIT!
Tempting but aku x bodoh wehhhh... Ive seen cheaper!

Enough!
I got chores!
😭😭😭😭😭

.Bubur Baby Porridge.

For next month's reference.

http://ayachalo.com/resipi-bubur-puri-stok-ayam-dan-sayuran-untuk-bayi-6-bulan/

.I Need To Be Strong.

Acid reflux.

Its my second attack in a week. I dont get why. I eat the normal things I eat and do my daily routine. Whats causing the frequent attack?

I noticed that once you feel the chest pain slowly starts to hit you, the key is breathing technique. You gotta breathe slow when it hurts.

But lets be honest.
When the pain starts to hit, I panic. Dont we all.

I panic and I forgot how to inhale exhale and I forgot how to relax.
All I can think of is the next stage of this messed up pain. That painful burden. Like heart attack and you can die any minute when chocking for air. Its a real mess.

Alhamdulillah for lemon.
Fast relief.

I take both in fact.
The doctor's pill makes me go dozy and high. So I wont be able to do shit. While lemon takes down the pain. So I get both rest and relief.

Ya Allah,
Please dont do this to me..
I have a family to look and care for..
I need my strength and I need strong..
Thats all I wish for..
Aamiin aamiin aamiin..

.At Peace, Dear Hazry.

Assalamualaikum...

I had reflux attack last night and took the pills. But it didnt work but Alhamdulillah the pain subsided after I drank lemon juice.

Then I got a whatsapp...

Hazry has passed away.

Allah.

I didnt see this one coming :'(..

Al Fatihah to my cheerful cousin's soul. May Allah grant him peace and bless his humble soul.

I will miss your sarcastic jokes and I will miss calling you Asian Bieber. You will always be in memories and prayers.. Aamiin aamiin aamiin...

.Family Holiday.

At first the plan was to go holiday at Langkawi.

But the ferry charges for waja and per head changed our mind. I dont mind the car charge but the per head charge is just fucking ridiculous! Its more expensive than the entrance ticket to Petrosains or Aquaria! Eat my ass!

So in the end, I end up booking a nice room at Shah Alam near Setia Mall, for 4 nights :)..

I mean come on. Selangor and KL is just as much of a shopping heaven as in Langkawi. More choices.

Tax free but ferry charge like crazy makes no difference. In the end I pay more for other things and less on shopping and holiday enjoyment.

Holiday plans :
▪Petrosains KLCC
▪Aquaria KLCC
▪Cheap baby shops at Shah Alam and Time Square
▪Bundle hunting
▪Spotlight
▪Mega Leather Store
▪And sleeping a night at Subang Jaya before head back to JB.

Its about time me and my little family spend quality time together...

Im excited for the room booked. Hopefully its as beautiful and comfortable as the picture and the reviews from others.

.Ramadhan, Breastfeeding.

Ramadhan this year is a little bit challenging. But nothing that I cant handle.

Its Akid that is trying to get use to the change in his milk taste I guess. Maybe my milk is not as full as it used too before Ramadhan started so he doesnt feel its enough. Owh ya, he drinks alot. And this time he's just sulking before bfeeding.

Kecian syg mama.. But I cant cater to your needs at this month of Ramadhan or I will miss a lot of fasting when I am able to fulfill it. Mama mntk maaf ye syg.. Its only a month.. You need to learn to adjust to situation when needed too..

Alhamdulillah its been a smooth fasting.. Although nursing can take up most of my energy, my throat never fails to feel and taste fresh.. Tastes and feels as if I just drank a cup of cold mineral :).. Thank you Allah for blessing my fasting :)..

So far it has been only 2 days of skipped fasting. 1 because I couldnt handle fasting during long distance travel specially under hot weather. 2 because Akid wouldnt drink so I had to eat something to make him feel full. Hopefully thats just about it.

Dont know why, but I'm just not looking forward to Raya this year. Maybe because family relationship havent been that comforting. Too much fakings. But I'm not gonna continue all the drama in here.

Next mission : 2nd baju Raya hunting, says Baba.

Happy Half way through Ramadhan everyone..

.Ramadhan.

Baru seminggu of fasting and I've already missed 2 days. Thats a bad record compared to past beastfeeding during Ramadhan. But I can see Akids change of pattern in bf. Its like its never enough for him.. Sigh..

Moving on..

I am thinking of buying the kids Minion backpack after brim checks in :D..



So what do you think???
Hehe...
1 each with different design so that'd know which one is theirs to care for..
Its been a while Taufiq and Adra begged for these bags lol. Now just need to wait for the shop to text me when stock arrives in 10 days..

And, Happy Ramadhan to all Muslims around the world..

*Alhamdulillah it has been an easy Ramadhan for me but a tough one for Akid XD*