.I Need To Be Strong.

Acid reflux.

Its my second attack in a week. I dont get why. I eat the normal things I eat and do my daily routine. Whats causing the frequent attack?

I noticed that once you feel the chest pain slowly starts to hit you, the key is breathing technique. You gotta breathe slow when it hurts.

But lets be honest.
When the pain starts to hit, I panic. Dont we all.

I panic and I forgot how to inhale exhale and I forgot how to relax.
All I can think of is the next stage of this messed up pain. That painful burden. Like heart attack and you can die any minute when chocking for air. Its a real mess.

Alhamdulillah for lemon.
Fast relief.

I take both in fact.
The doctor's pill makes me go dozy and high. So I wont be able to do shit. While lemon takes down the pain. So I get both rest and relief.

Ya Allah,
Please dont do this to me..
I have a family to look and care for..
I need my strength and I need strong..
Thats all I wish for..
Aamiin aamiin aamiin..

.At Peace, Dear Hazry.

Assalamualaikum...

I had reflux attack last night and took the pills. But it didnt work but Alhamdulillah the pain subsided after I drank lemon juice.

Then I got a whatsapp...

Hazry has passed away.

Allah.

I didnt see this one coming :'(..

Al Fatihah to my cheerful cousin's soul. May Allah grant him peace and bless his humble soul.

I will miss your sarcastic jokes and I will miss calling you Asian Bieber. You will always be in memories and prayers.. Aamiin aamiin aamiin...

.Family Holiday.

At first the plan was to go holiday at Langkawi.

But the ferry charges for waja and per head changed our mind. I dont mind the car charge but the per head charge is just fucking ridiculous! Its more expensive than the entrance ticket to Petrosains or Aquaria! Eat my ass!

So in the end, I end up booking a nice room at Shah Alam near Setia Mall, for 4 nights :)..

I mean come on. Selangor and KL is just as much of a shopping heaven as in Langkawi. More choices.

Tax free but ferry charge like crazy makes no difference. In the end I pay more for other things and less on shopping and holiday enjoyment.

Holiday plans :
▪Petrosains KLCC
▪Aquaria KLCC
▪Cheap baby shops at Shah Alam and Time Square
▪Bundle hunting
▪Spotlight
▪Mega Leather Store
▪And sleeping a night at Subang Jaya before head back to JB.

Its about time me and my little family spend quality time together...

Im excited for the room booked. Hopefully its as beautiful and comfortable as the picture and the reviews from others.

.Ramadhan, Breastfeeding.

Ramadhan this year is a little bit challenging. But nothing that I cant handle.

Its Akid that is trying to get use to the change in his milk taste I guess. Maybe my milk is not as full as it used too before Ramadhan started so he doesnt feel its enough. Owh ya, he drinks alot. And this time he's just sulking before bfeeding.

Kecian syg mama.. But I cant cater to your needs at this month of Ramadhan or I will miss a lot of fasting when I am able to fulfill it. Mama mntk maaf ye syg.. Its only a month.. You need to learn to adjust to situation when needed too..

Alhamdulillah its been a smooth fasting.. Although nursing can take up most of my energy, my throat never fails to feel and taste fresh.. Tastes and feels as if I just drank a cup of cold mineral :).. Thank you Allah for blessing my fasting :)..

So far it has been only 2 days of skipped fasting. 1 because I couldnt handle fasting during long distance travel specially under hot weather. 2 because Akid wouldnt drink so I had to eat something to make him feel full. Hopefully thats just about it.

Dont know why, but I'm just not looking forward to Raya this year. Maybe because family relationship havent been that comforting. Too much fakings. But I'm not gonna continue all the drama in here.

Next mission : 2nd baju Raya hunting, says Baba.

Happy Half way through Ramadhan everyone..

.Ramadhan.

Baru seminggu of fasting and I've already missed 2 days. Thats a bad record compared to past beastfeeding during Ramadhan. But I can see Akids change of pattern in bf. Its like its never enough for him.. Sigh..

Moving on..

I am thinking of buying the kids Minion backpack after brim checks in :D..



So what do you think???
Hehe...
1 each with different design so that'd know which one is theirs to care for..
Its been a while Taufiq and Adra begged for these bags lol. Now just need to wait for the shop to text me when stock arrives in 10 days..

And, Happy Ramadhan to all Muslims around the world..

*Alhamdulillah it has been an easy Ramadhan for me but a tough one for Akid XD*

.Note 5.

Its 2 am and I cant sleep with thoughts of selling my Passport for a Note 5 Gold!

That old craving is back!

Rasa nk nages je nk dapatkan Note 5!!! Note 8 was rumoured to be released this October 17. But feels like a long time to wait!

My Note 4 needs a buddy!!!

.Electronic Backseat Driver.

Abang and adek are always asking for every toy in every toy review videos on Youtube. So I just reply 'Ok nnt kt beli'. But I guess abg grew tired of it and understood that he'll never get that toy no matter what I say.

Truth is, those toys, costs $$$! I really, literally, meant dollars cause they're from USA. I cant. I could use that amount of money to buy other useful stuff.

So.. I know how much he loves the steering wheel. And I bought this for him, Adra and dak Numan back in Subang :)

I know they'll love it ^^..
I just hope the quality is good..

*Praying that my tailored baju raya turns out way the way I want it to be..*

.Cleared But Not Discharged.

Alhamdulillah, Akid's urine is clear from bacteria.. But unfortunately not clear from discharge. Sigh. Need to come back for XRay scan pulak on July. Kidney needs scanning. InsyaAllah hes all good and healthy.. Aamiin..

So this coming Thursday, Akid needs to be mentally and physically prepared.. Adra pn sama.. She's next in line if the female circumcision doctor is in. Its gonna be a VERY FRAGILE weekend for me :(..

.Custom Size Mattress.

I am so happy at the moment!!

See, I ordered this customize babycot + daybed for Akid and I was so confident that the measurement was the size of a standard single size bed. Unfortunately, when it arrived, I was so upset that the mattress didn't fit!!

And so the hunt for custom size mattress began. Luck was there but for a costly price!! I was about to give up until my heart was moved to enter this furniture shop. I asked whether the mattress available was the size of 38 x 60 and he said no cause all the small size are standard size of single size bed. And then he said, if I want a custom size mattress, it would take around 10 days. I asked the price. He said RM250!!!! WTF the cheapest here in JB!!! And so near to my house!!! I agreed on the spot and paid deposit!!

All those times going so far for a custom when there's one right here at the back of my taman!! There were sparkles in my eyes!!! Thank you Sindy Furniture!!!

So Akid's gonna have his circumcision tomorrow or the day after InsyaAllah.. Cant bear to delay it any longer.

. Muhammad Akid Faizin bin Ahmad Shahir.

Alhamdulillah..

5th February 2017, I gave birth to my 2nd handsome baby boy. Muhammad Akid Faizin bin Ahmad Shahir, 3kg and healthy :)...

It took a long cut to let that lad out but the moment the doctor pulled him out, everyone in the ward said Alhamdulillah!! Hahaha.. It came close to forcep but Alhamdulillah it didn't happened. I end up with a long stitch above my bikini line and a very hard round shape due to anesthetic injection.

Its gonna take a while to size down :(.. But Alhamdulillah so far, 10kg down.. Another 10 more to go! Hopefully breastfeed lasts up to 2 years or more InsyaAllah, Aamiin aamiin aamiin..

InsyaAllah will post a picture of Akid soon :)..