.Perish.

Hello. Just felt like saying, Hello..

I have this feeling that the end of the world is near. Because of that, I feel like theres no use achieving any goals cause in the end it will all perish.

This feeling is wrong cause Islam teachers you to never give up even when you're down to your last breathe. Why now. Why now Nadira.

Sigh.

.Vagina Pain.

Its almost 2 weeks now Im going through "excruciating" vagina pain :'(..

Its not those infectious pain but an accidental kinda pain. Fucking shaver!

Anyways, budgets.

1. Kids school fees
2. Buy Nisa's baby clothings
3. Water bills
4. Electric bill
5. Unifi bill
6. Kids Prudential

.Lai Lai Chinese New Year!.

Alhamdulillah, teacher finally announced Chinese New Year holiday! 15th February until 20th February 2018! Wait for us Subang Jaya. I just want sit at home and in my room and rest my aching body before returning back to JB and continuing my exhausting routine.

Remind me to bring my laptop since Subang tv is already broken.

Kids are MC today from school due to their tonsils and running nose. All 3 of them caught at the same time. Sigh. On and off betul sakit ni…

That’s all for now. And for now, counting down days.

.Someday, I Hope You Read This.

You know..

Someday,
I will tell Abang that when he was a little boy, I was always tough on him because I didnt want him to be weak when I'm gone someday. I need him to be strong and to always keep the family strong together, protected and happy. I want him to handle stress and pressure as friends alongside with fun and calm.

Someday,
I will tell Adek that when she was a little girl, she used to get a lot of yelling and smacking from me.. All because she would start her tantrum first (out of the blue) and theeennn she would state her reason.. And because I want her to be strong so that no one can boss her around just cause she's small or a girl. And that crying or begging is NOT an option.

Someday,
I will tell Baby that when he was a little boy, I didn't pampered him enough as the youngest.. He got the same treatment as Abang and Adek, starting at the age of 1. I want him to know that no matter what age you are, the love you get, the burden you carry and the punishment you get, is just as equal as your elders. They went through the same starting at 1..

Ya Allah, keep my family strong and together. Bless us with love, happiness, respect and with strong bonds no matter what you throw at us.. Aamiin..