.Goodluck Handling The World.

Buat masa ni mmg bg aku elok la ayah ibu x tegur aku and lebey more to Afiq's side. He needs em more than I do. Situations like this, I am very familiar with. I always make it out alive Alhamdulillah.

And not to mention now that I have my own family by my side, its more than enough, syukur Alhamdulillah.

Whatever bullshit Afiq wants to tell the whole world about me, it doesnt bother me and I just dont care. I have better and bigger things to worry and to take care of.

He needs to grow up. And hopefully my actions of kicking him out and letting him live on his own will give him a new prespective of life and surviving.

Sampai bile nk berkepit bawah ketiak mak bapak je.
Konon da besar. So act like one.
Konon nk jd abg long la bagai. But couldnt act like one.
Mulut je bising lebey but no action.
Cant even solve shit on his own. Poor thing.

If he thinks I am mean, he should learn the world is meaner.
I am being forward.
The world can give him so many good faces but they will talk shit behind his back.
If he cant embrace me than he has got a lot to learn.

Jgn tolak keluarga ke tepi just cause they are mean. They are mean for a reason. You're just too naive to accept those reasons.

.Too Old For This Shit.

This whole kicking Afiq out of the house has gotten really serious. Dad thinks I am cutting the sibling silaturrahim.

It was never about that.
Its about letting him live outside the nest. He needs to spread his weak wings and learn to be independent. Bkn duduk bawah ketiak mak bapak je.
No wonder he hasnt grown up yet! Harap badan je besar.

So now ayah ibu wont talk to me.
But thats ok.
This is another familiar situation and I have been here one too many times before.
I have nothing to prove cause I did my part.

And I dont need to hide behind my parents.
I dont need my parents to be my army to fight this pathetic war.
Shows he's not strong enough to face a small struggle. A small challenge.

Enough talk.
I dont need another crap on my plate at this age.
Im too old for this shit.

.Doctor Handbag and Wallets Arrived.

All arrived on the same week!!
I am just loving all of the items I bought~~~~
Specially the long wallet!!
Ok that all haha...

.Tight Budget.

This early November will be back at Subang Jaya again..
For Adra's circumcision. And this time with appoinment!

But before heading to Subang, I was thinking of going to Lowyat. Home CPU dead. So now Im in dilemma.. To buy a CPU or a laptop. Im on a tight budget. Need to buy G2000 printer lg.. Sigh.. Need to think this through wisely.

Other things to buy.
Leather tools
Some waxed thread
Elastic band
And few leathers of different colours.

Sume kne gne duet sniri cause Sahey doesnt want to support what I love doing.

.Heavy Chest.

Tah la..
Nk ngadu sbnrnye kt sni.. But second thought says that it is not worth it.
Its just me having a very tough month and its not the end of the world yet.
Still teaching myself to chill when wave hits me like shit and shove rocks in my ass!

Budak2 still x baik demam lg..
Its a slow recovery but they are making progress..
But Akid on the other hand.. Allah.. Susah hati mama..
On off panas kt kepala.. But doctor says its nothing serious.. InsyaAllah..
He has lost his appetite and he cant drink his milk properly cause there's hingus and kahak blocking his breathing while milking.. Not to mention the vomitting..
Sometimes I feel like I am not strong enough but I have to push myself to move.
I wont neglect my kids.
Even if it means staying up all night accompanying them with all the sneezing and coughing..

Sigh.
Nk cite bnd lain tp yg tulis nye bnd lain..

.Shopping and Shippings.

Webe just arrived!
About time!
The women said it'll only take 5 days. But I counted almost 2 weeks for it to arrive!
Now I have to wait another 48hours to get an SMS from Maxis to accept Telco switch. Dammit.
I was already looking forward to using it TODAY!
Another 48 hours is like forever!

Another good news is.......
The matching wallet I ordered for me and Sahey is finally on its way to JB from KLIA!!
Yeehaaaa....
Owh dont be surprised.
The wallets are from China and its a China brand.
As far as all the reviews go, everyone's way more than satisfied with the wallet quality..
And its genuine leather!
I dont care if its from China. I just want that genuine leather, the quality and that VERY affordable price! Not to forget the free shipping as well!

The bag I ordered is from China too on its way here to Malaysia.
No updates yet from Malaysia post. Hopefully soon as well.

NEXT TARGET ::
》 Dell i7 laptop
》 Few leather tools
》 Leather

.Another Reflux Attack.

Already 3 days in a row acid reflux attack ni.

But yesterday as I was lying in bed trying to find a painless sleeping position, I felt like a bump on the right side of my tummy. I dont know what it is but when I press it, there's a minor pain to it.

Another bad burn that kept me up all night sitting til my back hurts like hell.

Then I called mom. It was nice chatting with her. It distracted me from the pain for a while.. Mom reminded me that its not the medicine that kills the pain. Its Allah swt.. So never stop Istigfar, in good health or in pain, seek forgiveness from him and in an instant he can take away those pains.

So after we hang up, I put my palm just below my chest where it hurts, and prayed the self healing doa and I never stopped Istigfar until I fell asleep..

Usually when I woke up the next day, there would be residual of the pain but today, I woke up dizzy but no pain and Alhamdulillah, a little more energy. You have no idea how thankful I am to Allah swt everytime I wake up from a horrible messed up pain. Feels good to be alive and strong.

And that was last night's story.

The more I take this gastric pills, the fainter I feel my heart beating. The weaker I feel. And to be honest, pills and lemons are not much help most of the time.

I dont know how long I can cope with Sahey's endless overtimes.
Maybe I am better off staying at Subang. I only slow Sahey down and ruin his work performance.

Sigh.

.Ngadu.

I need to get myself a laptop...

Our home PC is being a bitch, wanting to on as she likes. And getting stuck as she likes. And going on sleep mode as she likes and not waking up even after a restart. Fuck you!

Im gonna find myself a new baby.

Just aiming for secondhand since Im on a budget. So many things to buy and so little money.

Nk ngadu bnd ni je since Sahey xmo dgr or respond anything that has to do with money expenses on unnecessary things.

.Menyusahkan!.

I had a really exhausting day.

And then Afiq decided to move from Subang at 5.30pm meaning he'll arrive around 9pm something when I FUCKING CLEARLY SAID BE HERE BEFORE MAGHRIB! Bodoh ke dunggu? Which part of that simple sentence does he not understand?

So I sent him a text saying this is his last warning. And then he went to sleep at his friends house. And then mom texted asking whether he has arrived home or not. WTF DO I CARE???

Bodoh nye budak!
Betul2 menyusakan hidup aku and family aku!
Ko da menumpang uma org, pastu ko nyusakan hidup org tu! Bodoh bodoh bodoh!

.theend.

.Interfacing / Batting / Fleece / Foam.

http://www.debbieshore.tv/interfacingbattingwadding-help/

Above link..
Difference between interfacing / batting / foam / fleece

,3,

Another 3 more days.
My butt cant sit still.

Main Expenses :

• Adra's circumcision : RM250
• Massage : RM120
• Heavy duty paper cutter : RM750
• Canon G2000 Printer : RM560 (This one maybe buy @ JB)

That's all for now.

Looks like Note 8 is gonna have to wait :'(...

The saddest decision in my life.

Sahey didnt kept his part of the bargain!