.8.

Im a little exhausted today.

I couldnt handle Akid's crying and

Fuck this!
Im off to sleep!

.9.

Countdown begins now!

Days ToGo : 9

Yesterday Sahey whatsapp me saying he thinks the fever is still there.. Like low blood pressure from before..

Alhamdulillah ade medical card tuk die je..
Today we'll go to Clinic Salina and have you checked..
I think he overworked himself and the body just couldnt take any more pressure. And this happens.

Ive told you before to reject them OTs if you know your body has had enough. But you still want to chase the money. Money wont get you anywhere.. You chase after money til you get sick and sickness chase back after your money.. Whats the point???

Your body needs the rest it deserves!

.Your Choice.

Sahey's been sick for 3 days and today, Alhamdulillah he has the energy to go to work.. Actually, he was called in when clearly he said he still wasnt well. But you cant say shit when boss calls you in.

Few days now I went to kitchen and saw biscuit packets in the bin. I know Sahey doesnt eat that biscuit so left down to 2 suspects. Afiq and Fitri. And today, after baba left for work, Fitri left for home, I went to the kitchen at 12am and saw another biscuit packet in the bin. That anwers EVERYTHING.

Looks like a blood of mine, is out of money. And too ego to ask from me.

You know, all you need to say is, SORRY. And that settles everything.

This time. I wont apologise. You know why? The frequent I make the first move, the bigger your head gets. So dont even wish me to say Sorry cause I am NOT SORRY.

Aku da masak. Da ajak mkn. Ko nk mkn, ko mkn. Ko nk mati kebulur, thats up to you! But make sure you leave a letter saying that I have cooked and invited you to eat but you're the one who didnt wanna eat. Ye.

* Self reminder : *
Buy acid reflux pills!!! Tgl 1 je lg gile!

.Note Balik Selangor.

Note!

When we're at Shah Alam, remind me to go to Ace Hardware to check some of these items:

1. Drilling set
2. Drill stand
3. Wood cutter
4. Some other hardware stuff that would be useful for book making and Adra's dollhouse renovation. 
5. Heavy duty A3 size Paper Cutter 
6. Leather tools set

Its a lot. I hope the money is enough for which is most important!

And hope the trunk fits.

Another 2 weeks or so til holiday start InsyaAllah. May Allah swt bless our holiday.. So many errands and so many places to go..

• KLCC (Petrosains, Aquaria, KinoKuniya)
• Adra's circumcision
• Berurut
• GM Mall
• Leather Store
• Paper factory
• Spotlight

Too many places. I just hope there's enough time. Xdapat nye lg da cuti seminggu balik Selangor lepas ni. Just wish there was enough time and money for bookbinding Classes. And plus, I want to meet my friends :(.. Its been forever. I miss having someone to talk and laugh with. 

***

Yesterday, me and Afiq had this big fight.

It started out small and then he got offended and I felt challenged and everything erupted out! From the past to the present. Then I kicked him out of the house and said I didn't want to see his face again, right after he said I was controlling his life.

While he's seeing me destroying his life, he doesn't see that his attitude will not allow him to survive life. Future's a bitch and he's bitching over the wrong thing! HE CANT MANAGE HIS TIME! HE CANT HANDLE HIS LIFE IN PROPER ORDER! AND HE DOESN'T KNOW ANY BASIC SKILLS TO LIVE POOR!!! He thinks mom and dad's gonna be there for him til he dies! WHEN I TRY TO TEACH HIM SOMETHING, HE MUMBLES AND SIGHS ALL THE WAY!!!

I don't regret my actions. And I'll never apologies! I had it even harsher with Ayah! I wasn't even CLOSE to breaking him like how dad broke me just to make me realize that I'm the only one who can help myself when others have given all the guidings! Got beaten so badly just to come out stronger! 

But with Afiq, THE HARDER YOU BEAT HIM INSIDE, THE MORE HINGUS HE LETS OUT!!! I hate WEAK SPIRITS! He just doesn't see life as a whole yet! And I wonder when it'll EVER gonna happen!!!

***

That's all the jotting for now.

.Happy Birthday Loves.

Yesterday celebrated 3 birthday darlings of mine..

9th Sept : Baba
10th Sept : Adra
25th Sept : Taufiq

Bought Secret Recipe's Oreo Cheesecake and went to Jusco for Grand Canyon Cafe and Arcade.. And of course, abg and adek's birthday present haha..

Adra got herself an ABC laptop and abg got himself a police station set. Baba still havent told me what he wants..

Had a really good day and Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah swt for the extra rezqi you've granted us :').. Alhamdulillah...

.Failing.

I gotta be honest.
I am not as strong as I used too..

And I dont think I can keep up with Sahey's OTs to be honest :'(.. But I dont wanna be selfish and tell him to diss his OTs just so he can babysit me at home. I know he's aiming for the savings but seriously, my back is failing me more than ever :'(..

Everyday I fear of fainting or sudden body numbness or sudden acid attack. If any of that happens, there wont be anyone to be there for my kids! Who's gonna feed em while waiting for Sahey to get back from work???

Allah hai. I just wish for strength and stronger body and better health. So that I can be there to take care of my family :(..

I wont blame it on epidurals. It was half of what helped me deliver my kids. I blame the DEPO shots and the pills. And no more of it from now on! Selera proper makan pn hilang..

Thats all for now.

Thin chance of owning myself a Note 8 :'(..

Goodbye.

.Fuck DEPO.

I just found out the cause of my frequent acid reflux attack is because of that stupid DEPO shot! And its also the reason why the body aching is getting worse.

But Alhamdulillah that mine is not that bad. Ive read reviews from other moms taking DEPO shot with even worser condition and side effects. Alhamdulillah mine hasnt gone that bad yet.

Im gonna tell the doctor Im quitting the shot and Im just gonna use condom from now on. Nurse said its free if you get it from government clinics. And they give you a whole box of it! So Im gonna go with that. Safer for my body.

Moving on..

Today is the 5th of September 2017.
Meaning only 1 thing!

SAMSUNG GALAXY NOTE 8 is now OPEN FOR PREORDER!!!!

Dammit!!!

Gotta have it!