.Acid Reflux.

Everytime I'm feeding Taufiq, he's in a really fussy and miserable mood. A very familiar mood! One that I've been through more than twice. Acid reflux.

So I Google if its possible for infants to get acid reflux and there you have it! Its a common thing! And the symptoms matches most of what Taufiq is going through :'(...

If I cant handle the pain of it, I cant imagine an infant going through such painful moment.. Its like on heart attack and death is just a minute away :'(.. I always Mengucap when it happens cause I've set my mind for the worse. Atleast I am able to take medicine and control my body but a 2 month old infant knows nothing and cant take anything.. Ya Allah :'(.. Sesungguhnye Kau Maha Penyembuh...

Ya Allah, Kau angkat lah segala jenis penyakit and kesakitan dari anakku Ya Allah.. :'(.. Aku xsanggup tgk die nages menahan sakit :'(.. Aamiin aamiin aamiin Ya Rabbal Alamin..

.Random.

Doctor said Taufiq is fine Alhamdulillah...

Reminder:
1. Look for tickets to Sabah for March 2014.. Heee.. InsyaAllah..
2. Buy shelf

Tomorrow is Ziela's birthday.. Hehehe.. My best prayers to you and your life love and carrier.. Thank you for being my best friend til now :).. I love you :)..

.Breast Pump.

My first breast pump milk cause Taufiq doesnt want to suck it =.=..

.Taufiq My Baby.

He's already sucking his thumb so I had to remove his mittens and he couldnt sleep lol..

He's already learning to make conversation and developing new attitude lol.. Its amazing watching him grow :)..

.I Wont Apologize.

.You're No God!.

Dear En Rosli Mustaffa.

Accusation and no mercy. Thats how raised me up.

The names you've called me. If there's anything left of all the cursed and bad names that you havent called me by yet, I would love to hear you call it now. Babi is what I am to you. I know I didnt heard it wrong.

And to you, all humans DONT HAVE FEELINGS. And to you, you're the only one who's RIGHT! And to you, people are full of sin and mistakes and should apologize to you! Cause to you, you are perfect!!

You just dont realize how bad you've hurt people around you!!!

.Angah's Wedding.

Alhamdulillah.. Angah and abg Zack da selamat diijab kabulkan (nikah).. Cantek angah td and mke sangat happy and ceria :).. InsyaAllah, Dira doakan kebahagian angah hingga ke Jannah.. Family cantek je anak 2 pmpn and 2 laki hehe..

Alhamdulillah nenek and achik dapat tgk Taufiq :).. Semoga nenek sembuh cepat.. Aamiin...

Geram tgk Syakira and Aydin td.. So very cute!!!

Semoga Taufiq grow up to be a fine and handsome man :)..

.These Little Things :).

These little things are what make memories last longer for someone who has short term memory lost like me :)..

Thank you:
- Nur Ziela Ahmad: Birthday present
- Parents: Bali present
- Ahmad Shahir Abdullah: Love

I treasure what we had then and now and to come :).. May Allah s.w.t bless our lives :).. Aamiin...

.Doa's.

.Taufiq's Circumcision.

Alhamdulillah.. Taufiq's circumcision went well yesterday although he did cried like nobody's business.. All is good... Syukur..

RM400 for everything... Not bad! Thank you Allah s.w.t. and thank you Dr.Zul :)..

For those who wish to make appointment, directly call this no, 0340228559, and ask for the location cause this doctor is a part time at KPJ but has his own clinic, walking distance from KPJ Tawakal.. Refer map image for the location..

Thank you :)..

.Baby Boo.

Guess who's little ass~~~

Thats right haha..

So Noni finally arrived Subang and she couldn't get enough of Taufiq, she made him cry after this beautiful shot lol..

Alhamdulillah Noni finally can go back and forth from Subang and JB on her own :).. I pray she'll always becareful on the road.. Malaysian drivers are getting more and more fucked up and screwed everyday.

And bye JB, bye daddy deboq for now :(.. Will come to JB again soon InsyaAllah.. Take care of yourself.. Aamiin...

.JB With Daddy.

Me, parents and Taufiq went to JB for 3 days cause we miss Sahey so much and plus, I needed to clean the new apartment.. It was hell! Smpai nk demam ko!!!

And Noni came to visit us everyday cause she misses baby boo haha...

Taufiq turns 2 month today and he got one hell of an injection on his hip lol .. Sabar ye Taufiq.. :)..

Anyways, we're at Subang now.. Hope to get back to JB very soon :(..

.Half Shopping.

Me, Taufiq, parents and Ikin went to Subang Parade..

At first we were happily shopping.. Even bought 2 rompers for baby.. But then after shopping, baby started crying non stop and we had to head back home..

So in the end, mom and Taufiq managed to buy something while I head home empty handed :(.. Hurmm.... Maybe next time Naddy...

.My Heroes.

Photos of my 2 heroes..

Hehehe..

.Allah s.w.t. Tu Adil.

Setiap org akan ade anak and keturunan. Tu je aku nk gtau.

.New Stroller.

Guess who got a new MyDear stroller hehe..

Bought from the manufacturer itself for RM220!! Outside they sell this stroller above RM350.. I even bought a mini clip fan hehe...

I love you Taufiq :)..

Feb 2014 they are having a big sale!! Better go haha!!

.Bald Taufiq.

The most desperate thing I've ever done to my baby:

1. Dig out Taufiq's nose shit with a black hairpin
2. Cut his hair bald.

Thats it for now.. Lol

.Miss You So Much.

The title says it all!

.Penyakit Jantung.

Surah and scientific way to heal and check for heart problems..

.Doa Akhir dan Awal Tahun.

Salam Awal Muharam..

Doa akhir tahun:
3x sebelun maghrib..

Doa awal tahun:
3x selepas maghrib..

.My Son's Life Will Be His Choice.

I will not raise my son anywhere near Subang or Terengganu family.

I will not let anyone or myself force my son to choose what he has to like and not to like.

I will not let anyone contaminate my son's head and life with music, politic, football or whatever obsessive interest.

I will not let anyone condemn or bring my son down. Or even hurt him.

I will not let anyone or myself, choose what my son's future should be and should not be.

If anyone even dares to yell or raise their voice or hand at my son without an acceptable reason, I will raise my voice and hand at them.

I've been through a shitty life before and I will not let my son go through the same shitty life I did.

.Budak Tua Ni.

Taufiq Taufiq.. Setiap pose kamu mesti mcm org tua lol.. Semoga cepat besar and pandai and kuat iman.. Aamiin aamiin aamiin :)..

.Video Call, Yeay.

My 2 handsome boys!!!

.MILK!.

Ni Taufiq mengamok nk teran kentot klua haha!!!

I think its adorable! Haha!

You should see his expression when he's hungry and when milk is right next to his face..

.Taufiq Yakyak.

Citenye, budak kecik ni banyak drama ble time menyusu..

Kadang nages nk susu bkn pasal lapar tp pasal nk yakyak.. minum sambil meneran -.-.. Macam mane xtersedak..? Mcm kn terer sgt je nk multitasking hahaha..

.Shin Chan.

He eats alot and sleeps alot.. So now he's becoming more and more like, Shin Chan -.-" !!!

.The Day He Became A Dad.

The first day Sahey became a dad ")..

He looked a little different from before when I watched him look at his son.. A little of disbelief and more of excitement. Mane tak, anak mke bapak and plus our first born is a boy ").. It was what he had always wanted but it still wouldnt matter if it was a girl..

His pride and joy ")..

I still havent congratulate him so, Congratulations Sayang for being a Dad to our son :')..

Mama loves you so much!

Alhamdulillah.. Termakbul doa aku tuk bg happiness to both sides of the family :).. Cucu sulung mereka ")..

Thank you Allah s.w.t. for protecting me, my baby, my husband and our family from the first day I knew I was pregnant, until after my safe delivery and til future ")..

Aamiin aamiin aamiin :)..

.Mama and Taufiq.

It took me hours to figure how to put him to sleep since I've tried everything and none worked for him.

So finally I decided to lay him on my chest while I lay my back on the pillow so both could sleep. And it worked. For an hour or two but enough to refresh myself..

.Daddy..Mummy..and Baby.

Because of some irresponsible adult in this family who doesnt want to take their medicine, Taufiq is now going through a rough time breathing. Specially during breastfeeding time :(.. Nose blockage, please go away :'(.. It breaks my heart watching him breathing hard and fast :'(..

Semoga Allah s.w.t. cepat sembuh kn kamu Taufiq, Insya Allah... Aamiin aamiin aamiin..

Mummy daddy loves you.

.Happy Birthday Naddie.

Thank you syg for the birthday wishes and for the birthday cake..

And thank you daddy for the Grab and Wrap present ")..

And most of all, thank you Allah s.w.t for my healthy newborn son, Taufiq, for my families and for my husband and good friends :)..

All the best people in my life..

Alhamdulillah..

So Happy 24th Birthday Naddy :)..

.Gastric Heartburn.

I never thought I'd felt that painful dying feeling of gastric + heartburn again until today morning! And today, it happened twice. And I have a feeling that its not over yet.

But Alhamdulillah I wasn't hospitalized on my birthday ")..

Honestly, you would not want to wish for this ache.

.Meneran Ke Syg.

Budak kecik da besar.. Tido nk kaki bersilang.. Bgn nk mengeliat with face expression.. Nk beyak kne ade susu dlu.. Nk tido kne dodoi.. Hahaha...

Macam2 la awk ni syg..")..

Anyways.. Taufiq got new Terengganu cousin!! Alhamdulillah, Wanno safely delivered a healthy 3kg baby girl ").. In syaa Allah, name, Nur Ammara Iris ").. Congrats Iwan and Wanno..

Now Taufiq has a cousin a month before him, Faeq, and a month after him, Iris.. ")..

All is good.. Alhamdulillah Ya Allah..

.Kiss Kiss.

One big red kiss to my Mr.Husband :)..

.Restless.

Now I know what it feels like to be a worried mother.. When crying and praying to Allah s.w.t just feels not enough, I just wish I could do more to ease whatever it is that's bothering Taufiq :'(..

Its already been 2 restless nights for him :(.. He's drinking alot and pooping as usual but he's having a hard time trying to sleep even when his eyes are half way shut.. He's been choking sometimes during his bfeed time.. It wasnt like this before :'(.. And his breathing are a little heavy and fast..

Ya Allah, guide my baby :'(.. I cant sleep worrying like this :(.. He's the happiest thing in my life and I know crying will do no good but my Doa's are as important as my prayers.. Aamiin aamiin aamiin...

I miss my baby trying to pump milk himself and making cute faces while drinking peacefully :'(..

Mama loves you Muhammad Taufiq Fa'Izin :')..

.Sumbangan.

Bismillah'hirrahmanirahim...

Ya Allah, semoga Kau berkati sumbangan derma yg aku buat harini..

Aku sedekah kn kepada semua ahli keluarga dan keturunan aku dan keluarga suami aku..

Aamiin aamiin aamiin...

.Taufiq Teran Taek.

Hahah... This is not his worst face expression yet.. But I managed to snap his poop-loading-moment face..

Well atleast the nice part hehe...

.Jason Wade.

Hehe... Saje gedik2 nk letak gmbr Jason Wade cause he looks a little like my Mr. Husband hehe... Only Wade has a sharp face hehe...

Miss my husband haihhh :(..

.Taufiq Tembam.

Salam..

Its only been a week and few days and Taufiq da tembam skit hehe.. Alhamdulillah sihat syukur he's breastfed :)..

Moga he'll always love his Momma and his daddy :')..

Taufiq.. Da besar jd hamba Allah yg soleh and bjihad tuk Islam k baby :').. Aamiin aamiin aamiin..

.Doa Untuk Taufiq.

Ya Allah.. Semoga air susu aku yg anak aku minum ni menjadi penawar kepada semua penyakit dan menjadi penguat kepada badannye.. Aamiin aamiin aamiin...

.Jaundice.

My little hero has jaundice :'(..

In syaa Allah, semoga result doctor nnt adalah berita baek.. Aamiin aamiin aamiin..

I dont like how Dr. Khoo handles my baby x(. I know he is the expert but that doesnt mean he should handle babies like chickens! Hish!

Anyways, Alhamdulillah, ceaser stitch is gone and my C section looks good :)..

I miss my husband and I really need his love and comforting words :'(.. Baby Taufiq misses him too :'(

.Visiting Day.

Salam everyone..

Syukur Alhamdulillah, even at this stage, I managed to be mentally and physically strong to do things on my own even with these stitches..

So far, I manage to:
- go toilet, bath and clean myself
- get up and get in bed
- carry and feed Taufiq
- walk around slowly

And stuffs..

Today is visiting day.. And tomorrow too I bet.. Belah ayah, belah sahey and friends from school and college came to visit baby Taufiq :).. Alhamdulillah rezeki pn dapat :).. Rezeki baby :)..

And now, time for me to rest.. Breastfeeding time soon!

Goodnight..

.Muhammad Taufiq Fa'izin bin Ahmad Shahir.

Syukur Alhamdulillah..

On 25th September 2013, 10.50am, the happiest moment of my life finally came..

My little baby boy was born, Muhammad Taufiq Fa'izin bin Ahmad Shahir, weighted 3.1kg and born on the 37th week :)..

Alhamdulillah Ya Allah my endless Syukur for this Amanah you've given to me and Shahir :)..

Dear baby, only the best prayers from your parents to you.. Aamiin aamiin aamiin..

To be honest, I am speechless :).. My ceasar moment was one of my scariest and happiest moment :)...

Thank you Allah s.w.t for giving me the chance to feel this life experience :).. The best :)!

.Pengubat Penyakit Kuning.

.PrismaColor.

Note. few places to find Prismacolour product:

- Artfriend @ Garden, Midvalley

- Vision Art @ One Academy, Sunway Pyramid

- Lim Kok Wing old campus

And few places saved in my bookmark, hahaha!!

.Ayat Surah for Woman.

For youth and beauty.. Provided you complete 5 times a day prayers.. In syaa Allah :).. 

Baca before you drink plain water :)..

Aamiin..

.Masuk Tandas Kaki Kiri.

Something I learned from Ceramah 'Masuk Tandas Kaki Kiri' ::

1. Masuk kaki kiri.
2. Makruh duduk lama lam bilik air. Mencangkuk lame sangat bole menyebabkan buasil. Lg2 baca buku.
3. Cara mencangkung, punggung kiri ke bawah, beratkan kaki kiri sambil menekan perut belah kiri.
4. Jangan kentot di muka org kerana gas toksid bole menyebabkan kematian dan kegagalan system otak.
5. Tutup kepala telinga dan hidung dgn menyelubungi towel supaya bau toksid tidak masuk dihidu.
6. Sekiranye tandas mengadap kiblat, toleh muke dan badan sedikit ke arah btentangan kiblat.

.Worst Gastric and Heartburn!.

Yesterday at around 11.30pm, I had trouble breathing. My breathing hurt so bad that I felt like squeezing my heart out.

So mom dad drove me to QHC and I got hospitalized for a day. It was a bad gastric and heartburn!

But Alhamdulillah after that injection on the right side of my butt, I dozed off to sleep.

Got discharged at around 12pm and cost RM500 for that 1 day!

Honestly, it felt like the end of my life. Alhamdulillah I was given another chance.. Aamiin...

.Video Call Lagi ^^.

So while we were video calling, he decided to take a nap, while I made a stupid face.. :)..